Breadcrumbs

So, about five weeks ago I lost my virginity. It wasn’t anything like I’d expected. I mean, it wasn’t bad, but it wasn’t like what you’d see in the movies—hot steamy raunchy sex like in Mr. and Mrs. Smith; where you both go at it like sex deprived animals, tearing off clothing, bouncing from wall to wall until you both eventually end up naked, and satisfied on the kitchen floor. The kind of sex that you brag to your friends about at school the next morning. But it wasn’t like that at all. Instead, it felt awkward, and he was…

Baby Times Are A Comin

So, this is really happening. No way around it—my fiancé and I are going to become parents in just a few short months. We’re filled with a sense of excitement, and also a bit of the nervous jitters. This is so new to us. This is Amber, my fiancé: She’s carrying our son, Noah Delmar. Noah doesn’t know this yet, but mommy and daddy are working very hard to give him a good home. Both of us are graduate students working on our masters degree. Mommy is majoring in healthcare administration, and daddy…well, he’s pursing an MFA degree in creative…

A Lover’s Bond

What does it mean to be someone’s lover? To truly love someone. To be inside of that person both mentally and emotionally. The physical aspect is obvious. But, how do you establish a bond beyond the physical—into the ethereal. It sounds fictional. But, I thought about what it means to be a lover while sitting in my cubicle at work today. I though about my fiancé; how I kissed her goodbye this morning, how I sent her texts throughout the day, or how after arriving back home I listened to how her day went. I do these things instinctively. Not…